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2009-11-21T03:14:00.000-08:00

why pple wanna get married? i really dunno..becos u love him/her very much tat y cant be apart?? hmmm..dunno... today is a bad day for me...i'm so sad today... some sae true frenz a few will do...ya i noe..but wen i need a person to talk to...i really cant find any...not their fault is that the timin not rite.. i think... i admit i hav limited frenz.. true frenx... think less than 8?? i really need a person to share with but this veri moment..sadly none is available..haha funny rite... i wish i can get out of here...but cant leave her alone...

i really veri veri sad.........................................

2009-11-20T06:21:00.000-08:00

i hate myself...haiz..i noe i shouldn't behave like this le..it's over! pls let it go...just leave everything behind or as memory... life is just like this..wad can u do? pple will change.. the world wont stop becos of u... some strange feeling...veri uncomfortable.. weird.. haix.. pls carry on peili!!!
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poly life pls end soon!!! i dun wanna be in poly any more!!! FYP..innovex...etc.. hate it!!!!

2009-10-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

Went for blood donation today!!! with 2 of my frens... it was super fast!!! think within 30-45mins!!! after that went to M.S find eug and the rest of the guys...all of my classmates FYP lecturer seems so nice treat them eat...as for mine..haiz.think he didn't even rmb our names...lol..cos he didn't give a shit on us... haizzzzzzz.... while waiting for eug n the guys...Edmond n i went to try our luck on the bears catching machine.. guess what..haha..Edmond caught 2!!! haha beginners luck...

eug n i went to watch Halloween 2... it's a stupid show... a waste of money!!! haiz..should have watch something else!!! hate my poly life!!! sucks!!!!

2009-10-20T05:34:00.000-07:00

Finally i'm blogging again....sch started... wish that sch life will be over soon!!! i cant wait to be graduated!! Project really make me mad!!! i'm the one who do everything! i really hate it! i dunno how long can i endure...haiz...i been pushing and forcing myself to accept and just do... everyone seems to be busy and worry abt FYP but that 2...NO they dun seems like..cos got me to save them??? why??? haiz...really very stress up...sch start and studies oso begin...MST is just down the road...i'm so scared... interview is just another 1mth....HELP!!!! HELP!!! I NEED HELP!!!

2009-09-26T09:34:00.000-07:00

am i a frenz or gal frenz to u?? why always u help me but i cant help u??? i really dunno every time when is problems u will nv want my help..why??? even buy things u dun wan me to return...for occasionally it's okay but every time...i dun wan u to spoil me... for sometimes it's fine but... haiz.. frenz said u are good..ya i noe but.. there are problems that they cant see... the way u behave makes me felt i'm just nobody....

2009-09-18T06:09:00.000-07:00

today 18/09/09
once again we quarrel... i dunno y?? okay maybe i was too much keep on saying he nv acc me.. but i dun think it wrong cos he abt a week nv meet me... due to FYP.. i endure..i just sae " i was so bore because someone nv acc me" that all...i just wanna voice out...i really misses him very much but...ya in msg he can always text " I LOVE U " but it just words with no feeling... i cant hug or kiss him... every time sae i love u, i miss u...but it jus words...yes it help to pass msg to love ones but it just for the period of time...msg cant be there to hug u wen u r lonely and hopeless... i really dunno...

the feeling are fading away silently...i cant find the feeling back..i dun wan!!! i really dun wan that to happen! he only noe how to sae " sorry dar sorry " but did he noe why?? i dun think so.. sometimes he did nth wrong but he will sae sorry...i hate it wen this happen...

FYP? i dunno...i really hate dis group! i dunno wad they wan.. i wanna just quit.. i just waste my holidays...we haven even started anything...sad rite..i really in deep trouble...

2009-09-16T08:59:00.000-07:00

today 16/09/09... i felt something bad goin to happen... he like change into another person... i dunno...there are a lots of words i wanna sae but.... i dunno... is wad i can sae now... i felt hopeless now...so hopeless...no one to talk to...will he leave me? like wad my ex did??? i just hopeless really hopeless....

2009-09-09T06:06:00.000-07:00

haiz... i have a really bad day!!! I waited for my team mates for 3hrs!!! Ya, it's 3hrs!!! can u believe it? i also cant believe it! know wad time i started to wait? 8am...shocking rite... i told them to meet at 10am but one of them insist to meet at 8am! okay nvm...fine i'm okay..but pls y u guys wanna trick me??? i like an idiot sitting there doing nth... i dunno can we complete our project...cos we have not even start to do any....i going to turn mad soon..i dun wanna fail my FYP...haix...speechless

2009-09-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

i'm aware tat i do not love him anymore but y every time i see he n his GF pic i felt a sudden sadness in my heart? i dun love him but y???? haiz.. maybe in my deep heart i cant forget how he abandon me for that gal... past is past... now i my only is eugene...

okay! today went shopping with mum, big sis-in-law, amy and dear at vivo...haha.. but my dear cant acc me! cos amy always stick to him! wen we wanna hold hands she would just dash across and pull him aside! awww! Eugene have a mistress!!! haha.. i told my mum Eugene so daring..cos he dare to bring his mistress to go shopping with us!!! haha... after that we went to meet juan and cat..we need to shop for Kailin's present.. haiz.. so fast all turning 21!! next year 22!!! AHHH! getting really old!!!

2009-09-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

another boring day... haiz.. today went back sch to play badminton! haha...what a work out!! lol...

tmr is Saturday! but dunno the 2 kids can come not... haiz.. i cant believe tat they hate to come here!!! i dunno izzit the mum who tell ties or it real... if like this my parent will be super sad...cos their grandchild dun like them.. y? things become like this??? i really wanna find the answer!!! this matter cant blame anyone..cos all have wrong and right.. but they cant treat my parent like this wad?! ahhhh! wish to get out of this complex world... endless problem keep coming!!! y, cant each people give in a little?

2009-09-03T07:00:00.000-07:00

i felt sad..really sad :( i dunno wad to do.. my family veri messy...i'm so up sad... y? y..u'll like dis? y cant just let the matter rest... our family already give in so much but y u'll insist...n keep on forcing my bro? i noe he is in wrong but wad can my parent do? cane him? hit him? will dis work? NO! my parent keep on apologize but u'll just askin for more!!! hey! they are just his mum n dad...not god! they cant change his mind or behavior!! i really hate that stupid family!!!! Who will suffer? the 2 poor kids... did u ask ur mum, wad she told Issac? she told him a lots of adult stuff..did u noe? or did u tired to stop her? NO! u just let her..n join in the fun... do u noe Issac became like dis is becos of this!!!! NO! i dun wish my parent to be sad...as they cant sees them... some more u have no rites to stop my bro from goin their sch!!! u are not a good mum either...u just keep on destroying ur sons childhood!!!

2009-08-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

i wish tat tmr paper will be an easy one! i dun wanna to fail another paper...although overall will still pass but i dun wan my grades to drop any lower... so do bless me tmr!!!!! i really cant get anything into my mind!!! y? haiz..trouble studying ...haiz y???? JIA YOU!!! PEILI!!! but i have a bad feeling for tmr... anyway i can do it!!!

2009-08-26T19:29:00.000-07:00

if u dun wanna help den dun help... i nv beg u to... i really hate sch! i hate it! hate everyone! i dun wanna be in here! dunno ask wrong meh? u dun wanna teach nvm i dun give a damn! i wanna get of here!!!! hate it!! got bf good? i dun think so... sick of my life!!!!

2009-08-25T19:50:00.000-07:00

suddenly felt pain in my heart....cos he didn't tell me he started his revision on AES.... he start doin the 12papers revision but nv tell me...we sae to start do together but....why guys always break their promises? i dunno... i very tired abt this... tot we promise each other? i shouldn't win him in the first place...now ...haiz.. should be alone better..i should stay far away from sch....i hate it

2009-08-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

haiz..today i really did badly for my AROC paper... i leave 3questions BLANK!!!! Each worth 20marks...so 60marks gone... which means i may fail..haiz.. so what if i really tried my best? i study everyday and nite... but... haix.. and why? why today headache came and visit me? and dunno how to choose timing? why during my exam time? i head was so pain till i wanna vomit out during the exam... i can't even use my brain to think during the whole period... even drawing oso drawn wrong.....i really hate myself.. i dun believe in hard work anymore.... this is just a lie..gpa goin to fall again..no eyes to see... still have heavy headache... still left with 1 more paper...dunno what will happen on that day?

2009-08-21T09:13:00.000-07:00

just come back from juan birthday dinner... we have Korean food!! the food taste quite okay... her bf plan nicely for her..he went to buy flowers for her and plan wen the cake can be bring out by the waitress with birthday song!! he bought juan a Gucci wallet! and he paid the whole dining bill!!! AHHH! he really treat her well! i'm very happy that juan found this loving guy :) Happy Advance Birthday Juan!

Exam is just next week yet i cant finish my notes!!! i'm in big big trouble!...........

2009-08-19T05:30:00.000-07:00

sad to hear this news... ah ma got urine infection need to be quarantine.. why bad things always happen to us? she is just a old woman... just leave her alone... dunno wad to sae i'm out of words... all i can sae is god bless her!

exam will be next week..i did have not finish my stuff... i dunno wad to do...AHHHHHHH!

2009-08-18T05:17:00.000-07:00

Today i found out my mum n me were GHOST!!! shock rite! i also got shock!! some one called and i picked up, we chatted awhile den i pass it to my mum...but guess what? that person sae no one ans the phone!!! surprise rite? then may i noe who that person is talking to? GHOST!!! O mine... do beware of me i may haunt you!

Exam is just next week...yet i haven even starts my revision... i'm dead! haiz... no mood to study... i dunno why.. still got 1 more sem den sch will be a full-stop for me!!! and it time to play!!!

2009-08-14T06:20:00.000-07:00

to those who forget ur mother love...

mothers is the one who bought us to this world..showing and care us with all they can and have... but there are pple in this world who won't appreciate that love they gave... from small they raise u but now u hav ur own family n left her alone... without anyone to care n help her....... do u rmb her love n care? u just leave her there alone without ur care... why can u be like this? u think no one will noe? u're wrong there always god! n most of all urself!

2009-08-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

finally finished that stupid GEMS!!! and most of all dun need to see that bastard again!!! i have enough of his last min!!! this wed is the last lesson..and need to present our website to the lecturer but he did not do n did not inform us!! are we a grp? i dun think so... till wed then call eug n sae "hey i nv do the powerpoint" and the time he calls is abt 11plus.. we having class at 1pm...and we do not hav anything! what is this?!!! he even screw everything! lecturer ask this he gave another ans and wen i tried to pull it back he make it worse... but lucky i pull it back in time!!! he just wants all of us die!!!

2009-08-07T09:40:00.000-07:00

today went to watch G.I.Joe with my classmates at The Cathay! there are a few rows of queue and each row was damn long!!! we are super lucky to get the tickets!!! It was a veri nice show...but the story did not end there! there gonna be a part two for sure!

den the later part eug n i went for another movie! which was UP! yeah! haha! felt a bit disappointed abt the movie...it wasn't that nice actually..hmmm..sad..but overall quite okay...

tmr will be a super busy day for me..hmmm..sad..cos i really need to study le!!! exam are really really near!!! O MY!!!count down 24/08/09!!! first paper, AIS!!! lots of things need to rmb! good bye my brain cells!!

2009-08-07T09:02:00.000-07:00

i'm so upset abt this particular person!!! He really is an A** H***! really! He sae clearly that the report is useless just keep as ref and can just anyhow use it but now wad he sae "Madeline, since you have the corrected notes on the actual report, can you compile it with the finance section and it gave me. Email me when you finish compiling and I can print, bind and hand it in tomorrow.
I'll take care of the screenshots and burning of cd"

but hey who is havin the soft copy??? u or me? isn't it U! u didn't even bother to sms eug abt the mail!!! how would i noe u ask me to do the compile??? the time wen i got to know was 9.30pm!! by the time i finish it almost late nite!!! and the next day i'm havin 8am lesson!!! NOW u're blaming everythin on me! I'm doin very thing to save this GRP!!! yet...

i tried my best to ask frenz for help with the website did u appreciate or do u noe! bastard! and u dare to sae to sir that it is due to lack of communicate that's y end up like dis! but hey! msn is not the only thing for communication! there is this thing call HANDPHONE! and it has a function call SMS! bastard!!

2009-08-03T03:59:00.000-07:00

today having presentation...i did really badly...i cant ans any question that lecturer ask...sian...

getting nearer and nearer to exam!!! haiz! super stress!! final year project not even started...wad can i sae?? dunno delay and delay...AH!!! hate the teacher! so hate!! hope my days at poly faster past!!!!!

2009-07-30T05:30:00.000-07:00

why must we live in the shadows of others??? i really dunno... we did our part... i know god did see it..so we dun mind wad others will sae... we know we are not like them...did not tried their best.. but even we did others just....haiz...we also have things to do...why us???? why?? i cant stand it any more.. i cant breath! Let us breath!!!!!! life really hard! others dun need to do things no one will sae a word! why? but if us didn't, den sae us...what is this world??? HLEP!!! some one HLEP US!!!!!!!!!!

born to a stupid world!!!! everything will solve if u have $$$..rite? haiz...life>

2009-07-28T07:23:00.000-07:00

one word to describe...sad... ah ma feelin really bad today...yet we couldn't do anything...just standing there to comfort her...haiz...she sae something which make our heart sink... she sae might well just die... haiz... we all noe it hard for her.. as she was trying her best to bear with the pain and her tummy... she couldn't eat anything..cos whatever she eat she will vomit out...

Get well soon Ah ma!!!

2009-07-27T05:10:00.000-07:00

went to see my ah ma today...haiz sad to see her suffer...she have difficulties to eat medicine...wen she tried to eat she will feel like vomiting... haiz...see her like this i felt like crying... she cough until wanna cry while she was taking med...wen one get old is like tat de.. everyone will go through this... no matter wad...

Ah ma JIA YOU!!! god pls bless her!

2009-07-18T18:44:00.000-07:00

you think everyone in the family owes u!!! i dun think so! is u the one who wants to argue with others! is u the one who make everything worse! i sae not him den u keep on argue with me n push everything on me! i hate u!!!! make urself like very pity! everytime sae we make ur life hard...etc... wad abt mine? i force myself to study in a course which i dun even like! wad is my life in sch do u noe? u dun! i hate dis entire family! every time u sae me n i sae u, for wad?

to be alone that's the best!

2009-06-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

I'm 21!!! finally 21! n older by 1 year old! went tiong to have lunch with mum, dad, eugene at raja inn...eat the porridge buffet! haha! tat's how i spent my 21st birthday! lol... my mum brought a mango cake!!! I wanted to tks ah ma for callin my uncle n aunty to buy me present! i gt the things i wanted this year i'm really veri happy!! i gt a French Connection watch, bracelet, wallet, bag... tks everyone!!!

celebration!!

2009-06-11T00:41:00.000-07:00

hehe long time never blog le... lazy... anyway thanks gals(min, ying,ting, bao, xiao min) for celebrating my birthday last nite... i really enjoy myself!! haha! thanks min n ying for acc me from afternoon! sad we nv take pics at top one ktv): but i enjoy the show..lol dun scold me...

haiz abit disappointed abt juan...suddenly reject me...i was so excited abt bring her to visit Zirca, cos she nv been before...haiz..always like tat last min...after work alway can join us at st james wad... so near.. sad...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY PEILI!

The legendary MILK TEA!! It's really large!!

My new pet!! (bought by xiao min)

Yeah!!
All the pics short of 1 gal name baohui...sad..

haha! i'm glad tat i was not drunk last nite hehe...i'm lucky!!! escape from min! lol!

LOST

2009-05-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

Today went to watch nite in the museum 2 at vivo..haha.. this time there are more new things n pple!

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actually i wasn't happy today... abt my FYP, sch stuff... haix there are so many things to care abt...why cant things be simple? why they're always so complicated? tired of all this.....FYP?!! restless... pple aren't moving... or am i still standing there??? dunno...

2009-05-17T18:47:00.000-07:00

sian been sick from last thurs till today..been high fever for almost 4days!! haiz... the stupid flu... last nite went see doc again...today mc....sian

Hard Rock Cafe

2009-05-17T18:32:00.000-07:00

hehe... so late then post this pictures up...

2009-05-06T05:03:00.000-07:00

so busy with my sch work...so sian..more n more things to learn..gettin harder n harder.. tried my best to understand but failed...nth will stay in my head for more than an hour, they just come n go...haiz...

FYP?! research n research....i hope it help..tmr meetin my project lecturer..n begin our project...

2009-04-30T05:54:00.000-07:00

tmr is labour day rite which my mum can stay at home n rest! just 1 day she ask to rest but y u wanna make life hard for her? u want rest so to her... u can come out with this kind of shit tat u gt chicken pox!!! pls with ur age u tel me u gt chicken pox!!! u want rest just sae u freak dun need lie! gt bad thing come find my mum den good thing kick her away...this is wad human are like....using each other....

project?! a long way for mi....dun dare to think......

2009-04-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

haha! finally finish my ITP!! but felt weird..lol! maybe i been in that office for 7weeks le..wen leaving the place everyone walk towards me and wish me all the best etc...that moment i really wanna cry out...i learnt alot of things from this ITP...i learnt to communicate well, sort out contents, be thick face...lol....this place will alway be part of my memory! i wanna sae a big thank you to those people who teach me things that cant be learnt in sch!! Thank You!

Sch goin to start soon, which is tmr...time table suck!!! lucky tmr only till 12pm...but next week till 5pm!!! sian..

2009-04-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

it has been a long long time since i blog...busy with my work! haiz..i didn't hit my target set by the company...then so bad luck on that fri they host a meetin...and talk abt our department..they push all the fault to us!!students! sae if we dun hit we will push everyone target n bouns back...n tat stupid boss aim at me n sae..." did u ask for help if u cant hit ur target?" i reply " yes, i did ask my frenz who can communicate well" and he say again..." so did it work?" i reply " no..." guess wad he say back? " den u should ask other pple for help!" and in the whole office who will be free???? sales line? they are always busy calling customers settin appointment...who will care abt me>?

he will always aim at me... there are 2 more pple in my group yet he jus sae me...another gal is a part time there, who work quite long le...she same with me only hit 3..n did not get scoldin...her call to customers oso no relpy yet she nv get scoldin...but me...he sae becos she is full of work veri busy...so she is excused...but pls the whole office pple oso busy wad...i oso busy..i tried my best to do my part to the fullest! i did not play a fool wen working..i tried to call every customers... even if i gt nth to do i would not go do others things like wad my frenz did...y my boss like this treat me?? haiz work...

nvm..i do part in this job can le...jus 2 more weeks...or can sae 1more to go....end my saddness!!!!

2009-03-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

Yo!! finally can blog!!! busy all day long sian... lol.. I am sick!! down with flu!! so tired!!! gt 1 and a half day off but i only hav half day...sad...cant hit target!! for 2 week le!! next week must hit 8!! o my god! tired!!!

2009-03-18T02:51:00.000-07:00

sian...whole day at office nth to do... stupid customers!!! dun wanna sent their things!! den how you want us to be fast??? ahhhh!!! turning mad soon!!! goin to relax with my gals!!! yeah babe!! haha.. got my result le!! guess wad my gpa increase by 0.2!!! lol..i know it jus abit but i very very happy le!!! at least i score better than wad i had in mind!!! most of my subjects are Bs!!! yeah!!! haha!! Wahaha!!!

* Cheer up gal!!! we will be there for you ALWAYS!! We will support you!!!

2009-03-13T02:14:00.000-07:00

i felt really sad...my mum hav a stone in her intestine...which will cause her pain everytime...she sae she was in pain the whole day...even till now after she went home from SGH...i really no mood...in doin things...i dun wanna go to the movie i bought yesterday...y god always choose my mum for those bad things? where is the good ones?? my mum was a good lady which nv did bad things to others...y her??

2009-03-12T20:13:00.001-07:00

ENDURING!!!! stupid attachments!!!!! Stupid BOSS!!! i did my part!! i rush everything out!!! i need to meet targets, total 5 aweek!!! i need to updates my tracking list n my manager ones!!! in a day or CAN sae everyday...i nv sae a word!!! i jus do for sick for the sick of doin! i nv complain! but y i deserve this kind of treating??? 5 more weeks to go! Endure

2009-03-03T06:06:00.000-08:00

1st day of work was damn bore! jus sittin in the office doin nth like extra...den in the later part of the day den busy...and then sudden meetin...jus before we are abt to knock off... 2nd day started to get busy! need to call customer, email, etc... and time pass really fast! tat is gd!! but stress..lol..

after work finally i can meet eug! cos he n me been busy since sunday..till today den can meet up... we went vivo!! and i saw my sec sch frenx!! sellin diy perm hair thing... and there is this lady( ang mo) keep on forcing me to buy! but i told her i wont use it as i wont waste my time doin it and i dun like perm...but she insist i will use it! i nearly wanted to fright with her! i nicely reject her yet she keep on forcin me n sae i wont get tat price she gave next time...haiz

tmr goin out with the gals!! haha! yeah!!!

2009-03-01T05:43:00.000-08:00

tmr startin work!!! at Shenton house!!! need to report at 9plus!!! i hope it is a nice n easy day for me! i really need to do well in this in order to pull my gpa up...i need to JIA YOU! need to save $$ oso!! need to work till april!

jus now saw my frenz parent..they look so pale n restless...especially his mum...look so depress..i dunno wad to sae to comfort them...all i can sae is take care....wad is done is done cant change le... jus let him go in peace...

2009-02-28T10:36:00.000-08:00

hmm...dunno how to sae..one of my secondary sch frenz pass away...due to an accident....felt really sad...althrough i'm not tat close with them but somehow in my heart i felt really really sad for him n his family....this tells us tat in our lifetime we really need to appreciate or cherish wad we had or the pple we love...as u may not noe wad will hapen to u the next min... i saw the news paper which wrote that my frenz n his gal frenz are savin money for their weddin but now....i can tell that his gal frenz hav alot of things to tell him but...i can see how sad she is but she sae she cant cry cos she dun wanna let his parent worried abt her...i really admire that...all her sadness n heart breakin she kept it in the deepest part of her heart...she is a wounder lady! things happen jus too fast...really too fast...hope that his family n his gal frenz can get over it soon...JIA YOU!

2009-02-20T06:14:00.000-08:00

sian 3 paper all so badly done....nth to sae... revise done everything i can...yet.. i study everyday from morning till nite or can sae midnite...but wad i got??? last paper comin next fri... funny rite...jus 1 more to go but need to wait till fri!! dotz! after tat goin HAPPY with my gals!!! hahaha! finally!!! can go DRINK! lol...

sad to sae i hav NO ITP!!! NO attachment for me...they last min redraw it... wen i go check again i hav no attachment.... i dunno wad to do le... stupid sch...give and take away....i really dunno wad the sch wan....haiz..sad...

2009-02-11T18:52:00.000-08:00

felt really useless nowaday...i cant help much in project..i dun understand a single shit of it... i did ask around but... sad to sae i dunno wad i am in dis group...i really pull eug down alot....i'm jus an extra thing in the class or beside him...i'm so lost now...lonely....

2009-02-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

busy busy busy!!! doin projects! doin lab test!!! all hopeless... i hav nth to sae... o.o.p? i didn't even know what was going on... i dun even know what or how to do it.... all is eug they'll do...i jus sit there doin nth... i wanna help but there isn't any space for me... jus help to do some reseach that all...i hopeless...

guess what... i was in the club! i didn't even get a notice from any teacher....all of a sudden i was in it... when i ask n ask he sae not confirm will tell me again..after everything is settle, a mail came...and my classmates sae i'm in the club le cos i gt that mail...suck! y cant u infrom me earlier???

2009-02-02T19:44:00.000-08:00

that scar on my hand was there for almost a year...i noe it wasn't rite to hurt myself... but i jus couldn't help it....becos i hav some problems with my mum half a year ago...i wanna to call someone but in the i jus couldn't dial any numbers..........the blood is flowin like what yet i jus dunno what to do....this is the largest scar i had..as it stay on my hand for almost half a year. that moment was so cold, lonely....

anyway it's over! what is done is done cant be change....tks for the care! it touch my heart!

2009-01-29T06:12:00.000-08:00

FRIEND? if there is distance btw two people then will they still be friend? it's true tat distance really will pull people apart or further and further away.... there are people sayin " the one who always stand by u may not be ur love ones, it can be ur best frenz...the one who noe u better than anyone else in this world, the one who will always be there wen u are in need"....but some how dunno why wen one got older u will nv find this person who will stood by u and spend wif u ur happiness or saddness [ beside the person u love]..................

felt lonely in the deepest part of my heart.....

2009-01-14T04:35:00.000-08:00

why are all the bad things happen on me? i dunno....how i wish i nv been in this world... why other pple family dun need to worry abt$$$ but mine does...everyday go home will hear either my mama or dad sae no$$$..or my dad askin my mama to lend him so that he can put $$ at the account...chinese new year is comin yet my mum dun hav much $$ left... i really hate chinese new year! i hate it! i hate dis world! $$$$ everywhere!!! i wanna to hav a family without this problem....

i lost my ring out of no where ...i'm damn sad...i couldn't find it.........sorry dar...

2009-01-07T05:04:00.000-08:00

sian..today everybody are busy register for their FYP..only me! everyone got into their group only me not yet... that stupid teacher... i call him many times already yet wad i got... " u jus register but comments leave blank.." wad the F**K!! i really dunno... i scare later he give me dis ans.. sorry, i hav to put u into other class project group.... sad............

2009-01-03T06:08:00.000-08:00

yo!! it really hav been a long time since i last blog...lol...alots of thing happened...too much to write..lol..so i jus write wad happen this few days. Amy sch starts yesterday! Primary 1 student le...lol so fast rite...next year will be isaac turns...hmm..which means i am getting older! lol...okay, anyway pple will grow old...acc my sis-in-law to see amy first day of sch...she was so blur..lol..i miss my primary sch life suddenly when i saw her and her senior buddy..so cute...and how blur are we wen we first went into primary 1... however, now the kids are much more different from us...becos i saw a boy dare to seat at the teacher seat!! the teacher is still in the class markin attendance!! yet he dash across and seat on teacher chair..and he even talk back to the teacher!!! lol...

yeah!!! i finally bought a phone today!!! finally!!!! i bought the sony ericsson C902...but i cant get the colour i wan..tks dar!

2008-12-16T06:56:00.000-08:00

haha..today went shoppin with eug! haiz..shoppin mean byebye $$..sad all my savin gone..no choice who call me wanna buy..lol..my flu came back and visit me!! O god! haiz..really bad like waterfall keep comin out...cant closed! eug and me went to try our luck in catchin teddybears..guess what he caught 1!! yes! he caught 1! this is the first time we caught 1 without fail!! lol..i'm supper happy and shock! cos both of us tot we cant catch it as the bear will drop everytime...lucky!!! thanks dear! haha, finally i can hav my waffles!! i meet min they'll in the later part..

Christmas is REALLY REALLY NEAR!!!

2008-12-12T07:33:00.000-08:00

today went for a long long walk!! lol..from 10am to 12pm!! so tirin!!! but fun! i saw alot of things today!! haiz i nearly complete the 3 bridge! haiz but too tired walk to the last want...only walked half of the last part...lol...there was so so so nice!!! like a mini wounder land..lol

2008-12-08T08:49:00.000-08:00

Chirstmas is getting nearer and nearer!!! haha!! which means a new year is abt to begin!!! haha!! tday shoppin all day long but bought nth haiz..SO many PPLE!! want shoppin but no gal frenz acc.... haix..sain.. holiday sian study oso sian...headache..lol..dunno wer my $$ went...lol

2008-12-06T05:53:00.000-08:00

haha long time nv blog le..due to exams!!! lol...but wen i wanna to blog again i hav to start wif this!! today i finally knows wad a slut is!!! really for my pass 20 years of livin!!! dis woman is so fuckin idiot!!! i really hate her from the bottom of my heart!

my bro hav a lovely family until dis woman step in! from wad i know she's workin my bro.. next she got my bro from my sis-in-law...ok fine..we cant force love! nvm we close one eye...let it be...she took him away from his famliy and now she dun let him see his sons!!! wad the shit!! he hav the rite to see them!! you slut! bitch! he can only see them once a week and now he jus askin for 1 more day to accompany his sons!! also cant ma? you really hav no rites to stop!!! u devil!!!!

2008-11-20T04:41:00.000-08:00

sian...project again!! comin none stop! ahh! nvm....endure...i like a super woman today! i was sick yet i hav to drag myself to sch!! i was runnin fever!!! ahh! tmr hav math quiz but i'm gettin worse!! sick!!

2008-11-17T06:04:00.000-08:00

doin project today...doin the work at lab...who is doin of cos is eug...i like an idiot sittin there...haiz..i wanna help but...i dunno la...everything oso dunno..so i jus ask around...ask and ask.. lazy me....ya lazy... interview comin...ahh!

itp? should i go? if dun go like cant really noe wad i'll do next time...if go i can touch the aircraft or do somethin related to it...but no $$$....i must hav$2000 in order to go...i really cant decide...if go it will be a burden to my parent....ahh! how???in s'pore i wont be able to touch the aircraft stuff...dunno la....

MST is jus 2WEEKS more!!!!

2008-11-15T08:00:00.000-08:00

today dunno why...i so good gal acc my mum go visit her mother at west coast...lol..felt like long time nv see my grandmother and i'm veri free so jus go ..lol..we spend abt 2hrs there...after tat i bring my mum go IMM shoppin cos it was quite near... wen we were there we went to hav our late lunch 1st..lol..i think it been really long time i nv go out with my mum alone jus she and me...we chatted awhile abt her past...i was so heartache to hear abt how my dad and his mum treat her in the past...i really can understand how hard for her to come so far...it really hard for her...haiz...i felt really bad to talk loudly to her wen she nag and nag..but i jus cant control...i got tried to but failed....she is my super mum!! i really wanted to hav a good job and paid! i wanna to let her hav a comfortable life!! i love you mum!!!

jus now meet the gals[min,ting and min sq] at ah wang...hav a good chat..but i turn out cryin..lol..i dunno why but jus cant control felt like sayin it out to them...it was abt my studies...maybe i jus cant store it anymore...or i wanna get a good talk! haix..anyway cry out really help...thanks gals for bein my listenin ears!!

2008-11-13T06:15:00.000-08:00

haiz! today oop lab test!! i'm so dead!! cant really do it!! need help! ahhh! y?? i am i tat stupid? is my brain empty only water? ahh! sian! tired....y? y?y? i jus wanna study well..tat all....but y cant...projects is comin 1 by 1...den i'm still standin here...try my best yet...empty brain...nth in side...waste $$$!!! hopeless...depress.... exam is jus 2-3wks away...yet i dunno wad i hav learnt...report need to hand up before exam but wad am i doin? dunno.... i was jus too depend on eug..am i rite? ya, i'm correct! dunno ask him...how to do ask him...end up like this....empty brain...lol...gpa? final yr project? report? all [???] haiz.........

family? dunno...u hate me i hate u...haiz...god bless my ah ma!

2008-11-10T07:16:00.000-08:00

haiz..receive an unwanted call...it is abt my ah ma sent to hospital again...they sae she was food posionin...haiz..she jus came out but the next moment she was in again! sad... i heard things from my mum abt wad my aunt sae..it really hurts...my aunt sae my mum the cleanin n washin is endless de so dun need to do everyday! u should try to visit ah ma wen free...etc..even my mum visit ah ma u'll wil stil sae...endless work..ya.. cos u got a maid to help n serve u but wad my mum hav? jus a pair of hands..and the whole house things need her to do...my mum hav to work everyday den reach home still need to do the things at home..but wad abt u? jus go out shoppin or relax at home... everytime sae my mum y u nv sae another aunt(ur sis)?? izzit my mum easy bully? cos she is too kind? everyone seems to bully her even her work place that stupid woman! intro my mum in to work so veri big ma? can bully and sae her? my mum is too kind to sae back u idiot! y kind pple got buly easily? y?

tmr presentation! now still findin formal outfit!!lol!

2008-11-09T04:25:00.000-08:00

yo! i'm back from kelong!!! it's a unforgettable trip! haha...havin fun there with the gals!! saw and try alot of things that cant really find in s'pore! we saw really BIG fish!! damn big!! we really played majong there!! can u believe it!! haha..bao, min n me take bus no. 2 home from an interchange to the other...long trip!!lol...but eug came to fetch me!! hehe...happy! he fetch us go eat popeye!! my 1st time eatin!! bao intro us to try...haha..eat until so full!!!

presentation is near!! really near!!! bless our group!!!

2008-11-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

finally finsih my c++ quiz!! i got 60/100!! sad...i 2 wrong ans!!! so sae bb to my 40 marks!! somethin happen today..dunno izzit i think too much or it is real!!! i only tell min n eug..worried... haiz.. so tried today...presentation is on next week tue!! ahh!!! yet we like still haven finish research!! ahhh! headache!! kelong trip is near really near! it is jus 1 day to go!! felt tired to reach CHANGI JETTY AT 9.30!!! awww cant sleep late! week passes week soon mst is near!!! week8!! jus 3week more!! help me!! i dunno understand wad a single shit the teacher is teachin!! ahhh! bye bye my gpa!! everyone is plannin their future now..but me? still wounderin...sign on?sales?engineer? dunno...jus nearly 1yr to grad...??????

2008-11-05T03:54:00.000-08:00

haiz today after 12pm i was left alone till 3pm! becos of the games day...haiz...eug they'll went to be the games leader..left me...guess how many of our classmates turn out? jus 4 pple includin me! the number cant even hit the minimum number of ppl need to take part..sad..but anyway we still need to play all the games no matter wad.. so first time i take part in every games! lol..so tired..played from section to section...jus keep playin....

quiz tmr..haiz.....hehe eug wanna buy me a phone as christmas present...

2008-11-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

sian ar!!! tot can hav a new hp!!! guess wad i waited for 2hrs yet i was told that my plan cant buy the phone at $168! haiz sian! waste my time there! ahhhh! den now! i cant login my sch account! can u believe it! they auto change my password without tellin me!!! i hated the system!!! ahh! y now!! i jus wanna to study!! for the veri 1st time!! but! wad the fuc*! useless useless useless! everythin dunno dunno dunno!!!!!!!! i'm jus like mud! useless! i'm scuk! i try my best to do the math but y? y cant i do? is my brain jus water or it is empty?!

2008-10-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

haiz dunno how to sae...i find myself really dunno how to love pple...or can sae wad is love? today i got so sad tat i took out the ring.. i dunno wad the hell is happenin? but i noe it is my problem...i think i from bad to worse...my temper...but he dun mind! that's the problem! he is too good..which makin me gettin more n more..haiz..maybe my studies cos these too...i really veri stress at sch..everything must pull myself to learn and tyrin my best to understand! but i dunno y i'm so stupid?! y? sometimes..i'll think of jus quit sch n go find a job instead but nowadays the cert are really important!! ahhh! life! wad a day at sch today! i really hate CH*** pple! sick!

WANNA BE LIKE A BIRD!

2008-10-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

really felt sad...i'm the only gal in the class n i really think i'm a loner....i noe there's alway eug by my side but everyday see him, talk to him will hav nth to chat de!! whole 20 pple..n a day i only talk to2-3 pple abt a sentence only!!! AHHHHHHHH! i goin to bore to death! projects!!! so many!! need to hand up le!! yet i still sitin here doin nth...wad i'm i doin in sch? i dunno...everydays jus passes like dis!! ahhh! y?

i'm sad..really veri sad...

2008-10-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

wad a bad day i had today...firstly, was ah ma sent to hospital...becos of her legs..she complained tat they hurt badly wen she move it or can jus sae she cant hardly move them...i went to hospital with my mum at abt 11plus...saw her layin on the bed and wen i saw her arms with blueblack it really hurts..! the blueblack shows that doc had taken blood from both of her arms the day before...yet wen we were there a lady doc came and tell her tat they goin to take some blood from her again! den my ah ma sae "dun wan, u'll already taken so much!"...it tells that she really scare...the doc took a very long time becos she cant really find the blood vessel..haiz..really veri sad...

love? i really dunno now...i hav no rite to sae....i think...as i really not confident to sae it...y? i tot i hav recover but the scar is still there... i jus leave it in my deepest part of my heart all the while. min ask me the question i dun dare to ans...n i dun wan to ans..i noe if i ans i WILL regret! i really dun wanna bring back the past! i really dun wan to..seein him really hurt! i noe i cant sae that but i jus cant help ...i noe i cant! i noe...tat's y i really tried to cover it away! i tried to take the rite medicine i need which is TIME! min sq is rite i should leave all my past behid! but i did! it jus cant help for it to come back suddenly everytime........slowly recover it's bullshit! be together forever it's all lies!

to min "i'm sorry to sae those things..as i should stand in ur point of view sorry...."

2008-10-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

haix..felt like a stupid today..cant really help eug to do the project! i jus like a stupid loh seat down there only..cant even help!!!!!! i really felt useless! this project require 2 pple in a group...den now like only he was doin the job... my brain is useless.. i dunno y i was in poly! i should jus go work after ITE...regret...AHHHH! hate my life!!! my family oso! especially my dad!

2008-10-22T05:21:00.000-07:00

today went for a interview at COOKIE MUSEUM! haha! with the accompany of yuying..the place was damn grand! felt abit scare...it looks like a place for princess! haha.. u really can reax there, enjoy their cookies, cakes or tea! they was Known as the top 6 in world record and number1 in spore!! O my god! so u can see how gd their service is to get that rank! their cake are damn nice! i really love it! haha.. thanks ying!

This is wad we had! Cake with alcohol! Nice!

Cake with Ice cream!! wee!

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sad damn sad...dunno wad to do...jus wanna kill myself!

2008-10-20T04:48:00.000-07:00

25/10/08

haha! finally meetin ting le! ya she is finally home n meetin us!! but it was in the nite time... i meet min sq first at bugis...went shoppin wif her..lol..guess wad i was so hungry wen i meet min sq so i decided to eat KFC but awww it's full house!!! no seats! and i dunno y i jus wanna eat KFC, others NO way!!! so we travel to oop side which is bugis village there!! lucky there is seats for us!! finally i can eat my KFC!! haha! ok now back to topic! we[min,minsq n me] went to central to meet our long time no see buddy!! huiting! for dinner at pepper lunch! i was so full so i was sharin with minsq! den hehe..i think all can guess wad will be next..ya drinkin time!!! we went to clinic for a drink!!

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sian ar today PBL is here..need to start doin le...sian...need to be busy for 5wks! hate it!! project!! alot of stuff need to learn n do! y?????

2008-10-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

i really felt like an idiot today! ya, a stupid idiot! acc juan go buy her bf birthday gift from 5 to nearly 7plus at city chain...acc her doesn't matter cos she is my frenz but wad i got in the end? out of no where her bf call n give me a good talk!! sayin "Y U LET MY GF BUY SUCH AN EXPENSIVE GIFT!"...pls i didn't force her to buy! i jus givin her advise..the sales promoter show her lots of design yet she cant find a single watch she like! we spend almost 2hrs in that shop! choosin n choosin!! how i noe that watch dun cost that much?! if u really dun wan her to paid so much den it's easy paid her half back loh...call to sae me dun bring the $$$ back! if i nv help her she will take the $600+ or the couple watch which cost over $700! she is ur gf lei she wanna buy something good for u...i jus a helper...wad i got a good scoldin...i really felt so hurt loh... yet i cant sae anythin cos that watch is me the one who sae nice...compare with others n much cheaper... if i noe meetin her is to help her choose ur gift i'll wont acc her at all! i would jus push her away n go out with bao n min or my dar...if it my fault i'm so sorry..next time call her dun ask me to acc her buy ur present...

Birthday dinner

2008-10-16T04:40:00.000-07:00

Finally here are the pics taken at the dinner!!!

the special desert!! guess wad it is?

hehe my cousin with her 'ang mo' daugthers!

see how yong she is!!

drinkin time!

eatin brithday bun!!

Wee!

2008-10-14T08:07:00.000-07:00

sian! sian! sian! wad a day in sch!!! stupid OOP n RWP!! both are so damn diffcult to study...haiz..tot tat they wont come out again BUT haiz....sch sux! this term was damn pack! ahhh! goin to stress till death!

YEAH! min sq came back le! haha!! hav a little gatherin jus now!! n we hav some drink too..hehe...Now left huiting to be back with us!!

F.A.M.I.L.Y??

2008-10-11T08:30:00.000-07:00

do u believe a 6yrs old kid noe how to threathen another kid? i really dunno wad to sae... wordless...

Text:

J: isaac is scared of going to yr house becos of one person
M: who?
J: hui xin lor
J: she theathening him saying if u dun play with me, i will tell everyone yr dad got gf
M: ......
J: he told my mum he dare not even fart at yr house...
M: (bullshit)

F.A.M.I.L.Y ? where is it? the only grandsons... if u wanna bring them to tukey jus bring..dun need to use the kids n make up dis story...who will got hurt? the kids n their grandparents...i really very heart broken to see this..i noe they're ur kids but pls no matter how u change they still hav a link connected to us! this is fact, cant be change...no matter how hard u try! all of us love them! we only wil scold wen they are doin wrong things...if we do this wrong then i had nth to sae....

2008-10-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

i was so hungry today..waited for him so long...sad..went to tiong hav lunch finally!!! i can eat something!!! but there are alot of pple!!! ahh!!! need to wait again!! after that went to eug house to spend my day...damn sian! sian..goin to sch reopen! tmr need to attend a stupid dinner...ah!!

2008-10-09T07:51:00.000-07:00

early in the mornin 8am..i gt to wake up and prepare to go see doc!! damn early!! haiz..no choice if late go alot pple le..hav an injection! so pain awww!! no body there to hug or complain to..sad.. went sing k with min instead of goin out with my cousin..lol..we are so high singin..haha..must enjoy now if not sch goin to start soon!!! hate to go sch!!

really funny...i sms W.X all the best in army...ya, he will br goin in tmr. With his love ones..i dunno y i felt strange..i saw him from the kitchen jus now...there's this moment that my tears wanna to flow out...i noe i dun love him anymore but why i'm behavin like this? funny... i wish u gd luck n all the best!!! [360]

2008-10-08T08:27:00.000-07:00

i was so bad luck today!! i fell down and gt a really bad hit onto a chair!! which make me gt a really big blue black!! worst came to worst!! my another hand cant really lift up to a certain height!!! damn sad!! so down with luck today!!! i kept on bangin onto wall n stuff...wad's goin on??? ahhh!!! nvm...

help min to do her bf stuff with eug...den went to imm shop shop..haha..but felt bad to push him away n meet min..i noe i'm too much..sorry.. min n me went vivo instead of bugis..we went to catch a movie " house of bunny " haha..veri nice show!! so funny oso...haha..laugh like wad sia in the cinema... if can think i'll watch again.."crazy".. [ ya forgot to sae : " i finally got a pair of newabanmale slippers!!! YEAH! "]

goin to start sch soon...

2008-10-07T07:34:00.000-07:00

went to acc eug watch dis show " connected "... quite a nice nice show..haha..veri excitin... actually i dun really wanna watch de but dis time eug sae he wanna watch so i acc him loh..haha..must give in sometime...lol.. but i do enjoy it! after tat went shoppin for xin birthday present..search every single shop at suntec...haiz hard to find..must buy something suit her n useful...kids!!

haix nowadays, always will hav strange feelin abt my stomach..it like gastric but..haiz..anyway went for appointment today at SGH..like wad loh..jus went in the consultant room not even 5mins den can go le... and it cost 25bucks!! wad sia..den ask me 6wks later go back again...lol...really like wad..

2008-10-06T06:36:00.000-07:00

haix..so bore the whole day! till nearly 12plus den gt pple acc...sad..went to orchard buy comic today but heard something from min which make me super worry for her...haiz..somemore walk until half way gastric came along...so end up go home..haiz..tmr goin to SGH for check up..sian..den 8/10 need to choose for gems..head big ar dunno wad to choose!!!! (min, i will support u de!!)

2008-10-05T03:45:00.000-07:00

hav a fun nite yesterday!! haha..went to Pump at GWC den Clinic..haha i finally gt a chance to drink that!!! haha! the pics are with min so cant pose it here..YEAH! next time try the injection de..lol..yo! n that's how my $$$ went...but i do enjoy it with u gals! (butt?) haha... after all the fun, came their frenz "headache"..lol.. hav a really heavy headache in the morning.. too long nv drink that why like dis...lol..

finally, i went for a wash for my teeth!!! it hav been really long time nv visit a dentist!! haha.. my sis-in-law paid for it haha..lucky!!

need a menu?

hehe!

2008-10-03T10:07:00.000-07:00

haha..suddenly wanna to go "ah wang" so i ask both min to join..but poor ms lee work till so late..from mornin till 10plus in the nite..haiz see her work till so hard...felt sad...Finally! tmr my last day at J.P!!! Finally man! i can relieve! dun need to serve, entertrain, see face!!! NO more!! jus gt my paid!! haha! $100 plus! n i can paid my loan from eug!!! happy! haha!

time for choosin gems are near! which mean sch goin to start soon! sian! no life again! sad...

2008-10-02T09:39:00.000-07:00

all of a sudden i went to open a box which i hide for a very long time.. i dunno y? i open it n those memories started to reappear in my mind again...i'm stupid or foolish enough to open it again! memories?! there are good n bad ones.. remind me of how much i love dis guy before... n how bad we gt n end up breakup... lol..i oso dunno y i open it.. maybe wanted to refresh the memories of the days we spent..n how we look at tat time.. anyway memories are jus part of my life..now i have him will do...haha..

stay happy is the most important thing!!

2008-09-30T08:17:00.000-07:00

went to watch my best friend's gal..haiz tot it will be a nice show but after all i dun think it's nice...lol...abit bore actually..

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work problem AGAIN!! ah!! i jus wanna help but in the end i was to blame..stupid rite..i nv think of leavin there so serious before but NOW YES! everytime i jus sae sae only...now i dun wanna go back there no matter how broke i am! in dis world there are better place n paid then here! today, i cry out during work..felt so..haiz..my tears like a water tap it jus wont stop..i really try my best to stop it from comin out but...i was tryin to do my job but pple jus.. now in my mind i keep thinkin : y be so good? in the end wad u get?... except for daniel he really a good boss!!

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rainin heavily tonite...eug n me runnin in the rain! the rain came in the right time..it can wash away all my unhappiness!!

2008-09-29T08:02:00.000-07:00

hav a heavy lunch wif min n juan..lol..den went bugis shoppin n meet bao...after that hav dessert with the gals(min,ying,bao,juan) haha..eat like wad today...
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miss him so much tat i called him wen i was on my way to work...yet wad i got..haiz guys..this isn't the 1st time le..i was so happy callin him yet he sound like dun wanna talk or listen to my voice, he sound so..haiz...i really dunno wad he want...y must wait until i not happy den sae " i'm sorry" or sae the reason out? sometime i will think to be single..n i dun need to think or guess y? LOVE is like dis..it is all abt guessin here n there...like a question paper without ans...need time to think..

LOVE?

2008-09-28T07:39:00.000-07:00

wake up damn early again! haiz..dis will carry on till the week after next!!! y cant children control their volume? y? it's 8am in the mornin!!! n i slept at 2am last nite! scold..shout at them oso no use.. they jus ignore u...damn it...i really tired after a whole day work...all i need is rest..y cant i get it? i noe they are jus children but cant they jus keep their volume down? ah!!!!

went shoppin with my bro, mama,the kids n eug at park way parade..the carpark was full of cars..whenever u drive there are always cars beside!! n u wouldn't hav a chance to stay aside to wait for lot...cos there're alot of car behid of u...dis shows that s'pore hav alot of pple drivin cars!! haiz...shoppin with kids is like hell! especially with more than 2!! scary!! u cant even see or shop for ur things!

work..work..work..tmr again...

2008-09-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

hmm...really felt sad the whole day...no mood work...haiz...i really hate workin there le! cant stand the worker...especially that runner his is an ass hole!!! freak him! n all s'****. i nOe i must endure as $$ are really hard to earn... but...i dunno...ah!! workin everyday next week i really dun wanna work but daniel not enough pple..so i jus help him..i'll go back work oso becos of him as he was really nice person so dunno how to reject him...but i think i goin to quit soon really! i dun wanna stay there for long...haiz..

today eug sent me to work... n i find out that he nv wear our ring again...this happen many times le..i really dunno y at 1st we bought the ring? as he dun even wanna to wear it? i ask him y nv wear? he will always sae " O, in a rush" or "scare spoil it" den y buy rite? haiz...i really dunno him la..n i'm too lazy to ask him wen i was in his car today..i jus felt sad n went to work...
rmb wad he sae to me " it's my 1st time buyin and wearin a ring..so it hard for me to rmb to wear it." but pls everyone hav their 1st time! i oso hav mine! and i wear it everyday..haix..guys..

but wen he come n fetch me after work he did wear it!! n in heart i felt so happy! as he finally make an effort to wear it! he proudly show me tat he wears it finally! tks for that effort my dear...

2008-09-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

sentosa! ya i went to sentosa with kailin today..suntan without tannin lotion..lol...so we both did not get dark jus get red...lol..went to kim gary to hav lunch and i'm so so broke! haiz...after tat went PS with eug to buy his pants etc..shoppin all day long!!! i bought manys things today! n not my $$! i really felt bad i'm usin his $$...ah! i goin to a tai tai!!! CANNOT! i'm happy he paid for me but for sometimes it's ok...nowadays no loh he kep helpin me pay...so i kept on sae erm nvm i lent from u loh...lent till almost a 100bucks! ah!!!

MONEY! WER R U!!! no more $$$!!! spect crack haiz..wad happen to me?!!!

2008-09-24T09:17:00.000-07:00

yeah! finally got couple ring!! haha! went hav a good meal with juan, her bf, eug n both min....haha..after tat we try to catch teddy bear haha but fail...sad! eug n i walk home from some wer near the Link hotel! we walk along the sgh path...so romantic as only 2 of us...lol...but i saw someone familiar across the road...which is "XXX"...i saw him and i'm sure he saw us too..jus tat he walk away without sayin hi..haha...guy are like this...y after break up cant be as normal frenz? jus a simple greetin? lol... i noe i must ignore him but... really wad...haiz.. Ahhh! i'm shit!

2008-09-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

sad gettin more n more fat! tot of buyin jeans today but too fat..haiz y like dis? ahh! nvm... anyway getin rings tmr!!! yeah! finally gt 1! haha! goin to start a new sem..math again...haiz...n no more nice shirt fo me...

2008-09-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

haiz.. wad day! wad a stupid day spend at work!!! ganna complain by customer! but i didn't show temper or bein rude...i cant even believe tat i gt a complain without makin a mistake...haiz...guess y? i was takin an order from dis family...n their kids keep on sayin things while i was takin the order...den after takin order i WILL repeat it no matter wad n i WILL repeat it loudly enough for them to hear! but wen i was repeatin they didn't sae i miss a dish...and wen all the food came they sae:" O, wer is my 'snail' ?" ...i was in a blank... so i sae : "erm..i did repeat the order jus now but u'll nv stated i miss the dish.." guess wad the customer sae: " i tot i stated it while u are takin the order?" ...AHHH! all a long u didn't sae tat it ur kids! n u oso nv sae " ya, can i hav tat..." haiz..anyway customer are always correct so i did sae sorry..but to my shock i gt a complain! after they left...

haiz i felt really suck workin there...i always try to help up wen ever i can..but wad i get in return? nth..no there is 1 thing i gt $$$$! hopeless...

2008-09-17T08:04:00.001-07:00

went a so call swimmin wif kailin..haiz...den went shoppin nth much happen actually..haiz sian..workin again..

2008-09-17T08:04:00.000-07:00

sad to sae my gpa drop once again! it really turn out to be wad i written..haiz..2.2 wad the fuck...ahh! hate myself! study study den got dis kind of result!shit me...how can my math get a c..how? the most confident wan..haiz...

work oso suck! damn suck! i hate that guy! pls loh u not the boss there n i'm not here for u to show temper! if not daniel i wont even step into J.P! idoit! as long as i'm doin my part, wad is there to sae idoit! i've my way of doin things dun need u to teach! everything u oso wanna do pls la u are the runner loh there are things waitin for u in the kitchen yet u come n be kpo! shit u! I'm doin dis for more than a year le! ahh! wad a day! freak!

exam suck! result suck! life suck! work suck!

2008-09-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

haha.i'm happy tat he drive me to mount faber...lol..but things started to went wrong wen he came to my house..we played cards..n he was so damn proud..i told him a million times le dun behave like this cos i really dun like..but once again he fail...i noe u veri gd or lucky in cards game but pls for jus a little bit too over i wont mind tat much..but wen u keep on winnin u become more n more proud..ahhh! i've nth to sae... u didnt even noe wad went wrong.. wad happen?dunno...

2008-09-14T08:50:00.000-07:00

went to watch mama mia with eug! i think i'm the only one who find out it was a musical show after it ended...lol..i tot it was a normal movie..silly me..haiz..hav a great day!

exam result are goin to be out soon! haiz, worried time has come! i'm sure tat my gpa comfirm WILL DROP! haiz..i wont get good grades! jus pass...haiz..wad a course...

happy birthday kailin n xiong....great wishes to both of u!

2008-09-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

went cut hair wif min!!! haha..she highlight her hair but not me cos no$$ sad...i like her blue colour!! soon i'll go highlight oso hehe..den we go eat jack's place wif bao!! long time nv eat le..lol...after tat their frenz came along to fetch them or can sae acc her to orchard....haiz..i thinkin of goin home first den from home go fetch eug but min they'll sae jus go loh so no choice i follow them loh..haiz..

YEAH! he is back! he arrived at abt 7.15 or so..he didn't buy anythin for but he bring somethin back for me..hehe..seashells he went to pick them by himself!!! hee.. so sweet!

2008-09-11T07:22:00.000-07:00

went to celebrate kailin birthday at ps with juan n cat...haiz...everytime meet kailin there WILL always a surprise! she got thinner n thinner! haiz sad...me?? ahHH! nvm.. eug mum called me jus now...ask me did eug called me? i felt guilty cos i sae no..infact he did call once which is in the 1st day wen he reach batam...haiz..i told him to call his mum but he didn't listen..i'm sad..i dunno y he bring his phone there but dun wanna on it? haiz..happy wen he call but he didn't sound like happy to hear my voice...haiz dunno la...

2008-09-10T22:44:00.000-07:00

somethin happened yesterday...which really make me upset...anyway i think i jus forget it ba...listen to min square lol... i'll put it behind! haiz... [to xiao min: i'm really sorry to yell at u yesterday, i jus cant control..n wanna be alone that moment..sorry]

missin u....goin to end soon...jus another day to ur return!!

2008-09-09T09:22:00.000-07:00

aww..went to sgh for the appointment...my appointment is at 4pm so hav to wait for damn long...need to wake up by 6.45am jus to hav a breakfast...den the whole day cant eat till 7pm!!! haiz sad..after dinner felt like gastric pain...suck..

today oso the 1st day he leave s'pore to batam..e hav to leave for 4days...sad...1st time misses him so much..dis is wad they sae cherish before losin... haiz...he give me a call jus now but didn't talk much jus a short 5min talk...but i still felt sad...cos today at sgh really misses him and wish he was there with me...

miss u darlin!!

2008-09-08T06:52:00.000-07:00

countdown for tmr..it's like abt 10hrs more for him to leave s'pore...sad..he's leavin soon..haiz...tmr goin to SGH...at 4pm so late...haiz..wad along day tmr.. went shoppin with him today..went to chinatown, bugis, suntec and marina square jus to shop for his trackpant...we oso went to take neoprints 2nd time le! hehe... miss him so from today till fri! sian hav to work on fri cant fetch him from habourfront jetty...Ahh!

miss u!!!想念你!

2008-09-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

today is another day without him..sian..everyday he will spend in sch..haiz..went shoppin with the 2 gals..haiz..acc them to buy makeup..suddenly felt i'm old!! cos my 2 cousin are startin to buy dis ladies things!!! ya dis is wad gal must do de!hehe..see them buy makeup really wanna laugh like wad haha...acc them walk around vivo to search! from 11-4.45pm! yet i felt bore cos nth to do as they are busy searchin and testin..haiz..wad a day..

goin to work at jack's place tmr..felt sian but no choice no$$ so wad to do WORK! ah!! next week he is leavin for a 4 days trip...and me SGH! scare! dun wish to go..but everyone insist me to go..haiz...awww!